Knick n knack

हर दिन एक सा नहीं है हर रात सुकून भरी नहीं है, कब किसे जगाये, कब किसे सुलाए, ये वक़्त किसी का सगा नहीं है,   वक़्त वक़्त कि बात है....वक़्त किसी का नहीं है! कभी लगे दुनिया हसीन, तो कभी लगे नमकीन, कभी हंसाये तो कभी रुलाये, कभी करवटें दिलाये तो कभी थपकी देके सुलाए, पल-पल कि माला से बनती ज़िन्दगी कि लड़ी है, कब टूट जाए ये डोर किसी को पता नहीं  है, वक़्त वक़्त कि बात है.... वक़्त किसी का नहीं है! जब कारे बादल ढक लें  किरणों को अपनी ओड़ में जब कुछ समझ ना आये जीवन कि भाग-दौड़ में, जब सूरज लगे उदास और चंदा लगे निराश, जब कोयल गाये बेराग और मिठास लगे खटास, समझ लेना जो बोया था उसे पाने कि घड़ी नज़दीक ही  है, वक़्त कि पोटली अब भर चुकी  है, वक़्त वक़्त कि बात है.... वक़्त किसी का नहीं है!    रंगों से खेलना सबको भाता है हर कोई अपनी ही धुन में गाता है, रंगों का क्या कहना, रंगीन ज़िन्दगी सब चाहते हैं, तभी तो अपनी अलग धुन सब बनाते हैं, मगर दीवानों, गुम ना जाना इस मेले में, भूल ना जाना जीवन के खेले में, कि सुर पुराने भी लगते हैं, रंग फीके भी पड़ते हैं, हालात कभी एक से रहते नहीं, बीते दिन वापस कभी आते

सोचती हूँ सोचूं यूँही बैठे-बैठे ख्याल आया की कुछ सोचूं, जब सोचने बैठी तो लगा क्या होगा सोचके, क्या लोग बदल जाएंगे, या वक़्त बदल जाएगा, ज़िन्दगी आसान हो जाएगी, या इंसान कि बुद्धि राह पे आएगी, सोचती हूँ सोचूं लेकिन क्या सोचूं! ये ज़िन्दगी क्यूँ है, हम इन्सान क्यों हैं, हम जीते क्यूँ हैं, हम मरते क्यूँ हैं, वक़्त क्यूँ ठहर नहीं जाता, सब अछा क्यूँ  हो  नहीं जाता, झूठ मर क्यूँ नहीं जाता, सच वक़्त पे सामने क्यूँ नहीं आता, सोचती हूँ सोचूं लेकिन क्यूँ सोचूं! रह-रह के ख्याल आता है मन में अगर सब सोचें तो क्या होगा जीवन में, सुधर जाएंगे सबके रात दिन, थोड़ा आसन हो जाएगा जीवन, जीवन साँसों की नाज़ुक कड़ी है, दुनिया जीवन की परीक्षा लेने खड़ी है, क्यों न इस परीक्षा की घड़ी में, दें एक दुसरे का साथ, और बनाएं पूरी दुनिया को अपना परिवार! सोचती हूँ सोचूं लेकिन कब सोचूं! जब सब खत्म हो जाएगा तब, या लड़ते-लड़ते थक जाउंगी तब, जब थक जाएगी ज़िन्दगी तब, या मैं ज़िन्दगी से थक जाउंगी तब! वक़्त से जो लड़ा वो न रहा कहीं का, सुना था दादी से बचपन में, दादी भी हार गयी थी दुनिया से, अब आता है समझ में, कहती थी वो क

Super hectic and emotionally boiling days since my last blog, everything has gone upside down since then. Was already going through turbulent times on professional front, even personal relationships went sour. WHY??? Iam asking it and i know that i know the answer...which too is related to the former front. People cannot see other's being praised about..be it friends...your trusted ones...ooops! to whom i considered my (fake)friends and puked everything in front of them,.,,and what did they do? BACK STABBING!!  Life has made me experienced those feelings and emotions which were unknown to me. Feelings of being back stabbed, betrayed, being bitched about, boycotted, prohibited.... and the list of terrible emotions goes on. Life was never such a bitch to me. But now after i see that phase passing and life coming back to normal sans fake friends..i realise the importance of my near & dear ones who are with me unconditionally.  Life teaches you lessons at strange times in strange

A lot has happened since my birthday...whoohh!!....i was thinking that life will be different and new in 24th year of my life...but the start has been so so shocking, I wonder what all will happen the entire year...the year has just started and so my fight against the system and corruption. Last one week was so eventful, full of emotions and high on drama! Dramatic it is and so is unbelieving. Have started the fight but still cannot believe that it HAPPENED WITH US!! (It's not alone me who is fighting....near about 100 people are affected and we all are together in this fight). Everyone came with lots of expectations, aims and dreams...but what we got after spending our quality time and our parent's hard earned money - FRAUD, DHOKA, FAREB...we all are cheated. (ok...i cannot disclose what has happened...m just wending out my frustration and anger by writing this). The suspense will be out in open in some time (if circumstances compel us to do that). We guys have been running f

What shall i write...m in a state of shock. Unable to see my future with tearful blurred vision, i just cannot believe what happened with me.  Though i have gone through each minute detail, have confirmed and convinced myself that things are not as simple and wise as they appear...but somewhere in my heart iam still sure that things will turn the right way.  O god...why it happened to me??/ Why Me?? Why always me?? Why do i have to fight always to set the things right for me?? WHY WHY?? Heaven's sake..whenever i feel everything is falling in place, everything gets upside down for me to sit and think all over again..suddenly i have to re-think my plans and schedule the future things.  I have realised that life can be messy anytime..you never know when your plans fail badly and you have to start from the begininig.....LIFE!!   Till last week i was happy and celebrating my birthday... unexpected parties, shopping sprees and movie-lunches..and was happy talking about  unexpected thin

okk....after an unexpected birthday week....here comes another! This week comes with set of situations/circumstances/activities which i never thought of... guys... m living a strangest dream of my life...never thought of it a week before or when i was writing the last blog...pheww!!! LIFE is soo full of unexpectations...i agree!! Got a call from my prof. and he asked me to become a part of a media committee for an ongoing fest in my univ...never thought i would be doing it....instead had other plans like will go for Rann, will visit World Book Fair, will attend papa's office, will be studying, will  finish reading pending reads, will spend quality time with mumma etc etc....plans never end... BUT now m attending a four day fest and writing press releases...wierd but impressive! More so....got an e-mail today scheduling my next week...again UNEXPECTED!! How everything happens on its own...you don't have to plan..you don't have to think....just act the way life sets the sta

Hmmm.... as expected unexpected happened today! Last day of my birthday week...and got yet another birthday gift...SHOPPING... !!YAY!! (this is a best birthday gift for a girl...even if she do not buy anything.... but she will always adore you for this!) Me and mumma went on an unexpected shopping expedition today....we shopped till we were broke (physically and monetary....you have to keep things in check!) but it was ultimate fun! Mom and daughter shopping together is anyday a great outing. She is a sport and a great company...i enjoy with her the most!! This year we both have pledged to steal out some time from our busy schedules and spend quality time together....hope these wonderful days remain forever and life stops to be eternal! I know this is a silly wish and can never be granted but still i will wish wish and wish....Luv yaa mommmyy! Hope tomorrow brings with it some new adventures and excitement in life...if not...then i pray for a peaceful blessed day.... amen!